OOM: Javert Day Three

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He returns from the hunt, his hunger sated, but his mind restless.

The man haunts him, with his stern mouth and his searching gaze.  He lets himself imagine all the impossible moments, trying to let them fall away into darkness, to let them die like the flames when all the fuel is spent.  

He paces when he's restless, and he finds himself back in the sanctuary.  Alexandreina frets in her sleep, and he kisses her icy lips.  Mirella is still, and cold, and beautiful.  He remembers how easily he could make her laugh, before the hunger stole her mind.  Tsura reaches for him, her dark eyes opening and her voice a hungry moan.  A wave of desire hits him, and he pushes it away, willing her back down into sleep.

That is what he did to Javert.  He had good intentions, but the man refused all his advances.  And he pushed, and pushed, until all the armor was stripped away, and he made the man wail with ecstasy.

It was easier to live with dispensing pain, he thinks, eyeing the earth-filled coffin.   

In his head, he tries to imagine what the world would look like, if she had never been taken from him.  How many lives would have been spared?  How many souls?

He cannot sleep, not while this last day remains, and so he paces.  Listening for the man to stir above, and sending Abel to tend to him.

He releases all veils from Javert's mind, but the connection in the blood, that will only fade with time.

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He swings again, thoughtless, mindless, feeble blood thundering in his ears.

'Never.'

Never.

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This time the blow connects under his cheekbone, sending a wave of pain rattling through his eye socket and into his skull. His head rocks back on his neck, and he falls back a step. And it's delicious.

Fire marks the spot where Javert's fist touched his skin. He revels in it. His words are punctuated by ragged breaths, and he drags his gaze back to the man before him.

'I have drunk, from the font of your heart. You, will be a part of me, long after your bones, have turned to dust.'

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'Stop-'

He thought the creature would hit back. That is what animals do, is it not? They fight. They brawl, and scream. There is desperation in his chest now, making his arms tight, hindering the power in his muscles. But still, he cannot stop. The blood from the man's lip - it could be his blood, stolen from him as it was; it is his to take back. Yes, yes, he can do this, and it is just.

He aims this time. The nose, the teeth; he has two fists, and knows how to use them.

'-talking.'

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The hit connects and drives him back another step, all the way to the cold stone of the wall. Blood sprays through the air, though whether from Javert's knuckles hitting the rigid edge of his teeth or from the meat of his nose, it's impossible to tell.

The second hit comes quick on the heels of the first, and it takes him by surprise. He wants to scream at him, Yes, take back what is yours! Pull it from me by force!

But he keeps those thoughts to himself, hissing at the sharp sensation travelling through long neglected pathways into his spine. Sensation, reminding him of what it's like to be human. To be alive.

'I will, have, this day.' The words are gritted out through clenched teeth.

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He is acting on instinct now; blood hits his face, and he thinks nothing of it. He simply grabs him again, and pulls him onto the knee driving up into his stomach.

'Let me go.'

His mind begs for it, but his voice is strong enough. He just wants all this to be over. Is it too much to ask? He will punch his way to Hell, if he has to. Never mind what it costs.

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The air goes out of him, and he curls into the blow, smelling the man's sweat and his fear, his blood and his rage. Vlad's hands grab onto the sleeves of the man's coat, just to keep his balance.

His voice is barely more than a whisper. 'Stay with me.'

His vision is blurring and he keeps the monster deep in the vault of his mind, letting the blood flow, letting the wounds stand. He could heal them as quickly as they were made, but he will not.

It would cost blood, and he does not want to spend the last few precious drops that keep him bound to this glorious bull of a man. Worse, he knows he will relent, in the end.

The iron wire around his heart clenches tighter, and it drowns out the beating.

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He wrenches his arms away. One fist closes on his throat as he bends, the other is fuelled by months of living in his own sick mind; it crashes into the man's jaw, and he does not care that he cannot catch a breath. His chest is tight, he is gasping; he cannot think, and he just wants to be free.

'I will never.'

He follows him down to the ground, a knee digging into his chest.

'I will never.'

He is hitting him, and hitting him, and there is pain but that is well. He wanted pain. He asked for pain, and he brought it on himself, and he will not turn from it now.

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Explosions of white and red crash through his vision with each hit. The hand at his throat cuts off his air, crushing cartilage, sealing his airway, but it hardly matters. The knee in his chest crushes his silent heart, ribs cracking, the sternum separating with a sickening crunch. His head lolls and returns with every punch, the flesh of his lips torn and bleeding, the meat of his cheek turning to bloody pulp, marring his marble white skin.

In his head, he feels each blow, catalogs each injury, the images tangling with the memories of last night, of tasting his skin and the sweet heaven of his blood. If Javert can't take what he needs from his heart and his mind, let him take it from his body. He will give whatever is required of him.

He can only mouth the words now, one hand clinging to the man's sleeve.

Stay.



Be.



Still.

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He cannot shake that hand off him. He wants to not understand what the man is saying, but the words are there to be read, even through all the blood. Even through the body breaking underneath him; he wants to be sick, a body should not fall apart this way, nothing is that vulnerable.

But in the end, he has to break before he can find resolution. This time, not his mind - that is already gone, he is sure; has been gone since the night on the Seine, because he does not recognise anything that has happened since.

No, it is far more pedestrian. His hand is what gives out, making a crack of its own as it attempts to spread the man's nose across his face. Pain shoots up his arm like a lightning strike, his fingers turn numb, and he can no longer make a fist. His head thrums with pressure as he stops, yanks a breath in that tastes of copper, lets out a noise that is something akin to a horse who has broken its leg.

Tepesh is a mess beneath him. And there is no satisfaction in it. He feels just the same as he did before, only this time knowing that he has broken again. He has violated himself. This was not the behaviour of a just man.

He falls. Backwards, onto the floor, sitting with his hand useless on the stones. He is, finally, still.

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Vlad lays there, eyes closed, as still as death for a long time. He can feel the blood on the back of his head from where his scalp has been sliced to ribbons on the stone floor. He can feel the bones of his face, his jaw, separated.

He has no choice. One last breath whispered across Javert's thoughts.

I release you.

And then, emptiness and the black.